Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Don't judge a book by its cover

In one of my classes - I'm a Nutrition major...yeah I find this funny and ironic - we had to do an exercise about how you would feel about taking advice from a nutrition counselor that was "not the ideal body weight".  Well damn not 10 minutes earlier this I was talking to 2 of my classmates about this exact thing (I am without a doubt one of the only fat people in my major and it can be quite intimidating - I try my hardest to not eat chocolate chip cookies in class).  I of course stated that this is something that I have thought and worried about for quite a while - will I fail at my career because of the way I look?  Will anyone want to come to me for advice?  What if no one looks beyond my appearance to give me a chance?  This topic has definitely given me a bit anxiety especially considering that for this same class we have a 5 week project where we have to counsel some random person that was assigned to us. I was completely freaking out that my client would be totally unresponsive once she saw me and not want to participate in the program any longer.  I am happy to report that she didn't show me any signs that she was not going to take advice from the fat girl and seemed interested in what I had to say.  I really hope that there are more people like her out there because I plan on being very successful in my field and career.  I may not go into counseling but I will definitely be working in the nutrition field in some way and even if I am meet with judgement I know that I have the knowledge and the passion to be where I am.

So please remember that just because someone doesn't look the part it doesn't mean that they don't have the knowledge that is needed.

“ Judgments prevent us from seeing the good that lies beyond appearances.”  Wayne Dyer

Monday, October 22, 2012


Yes, I'm fat, chubby, thick, fluffy or whatever you want to call it.  Yes, I have 2 chins, my thighs rub together, my arm fat waves like the American flag, and don't get me started on my back fat and stomach rolls!  All of this is who I am and guess what I am no less of a person because of it.  I am who I am and you can love me or hate me - either way is fine with me - just don't judge me.  You are no better than me because you only have 1 chin, or thighs that don't rub together.  Good for you that you can turn down a chocolate bar or a yummy brownie - I don't judge you for being insane enough to do that so don't judge me.  If you don't like what you see then simply DON'T LOOK, it's that easy...but hey if you do like what you see give me a little shout and let me know :-)
I have had 30 or so years of hearing all of the negative comments about my weight so trust me, I have heard it all so how about being original and don't say anything.

Now I don't always feel like this but it is something that I try to remember especially on those low days - Sexy isn't about how much you weigh, how thin your thighs are, how small your ass is or how tiny your clothes are.  It's about how you fell, how you carry yourself and how high you hold your head...Strong, sexy, confident

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Am I really beautiful?

I have been called many things in my life but when someone tells me I am beautiful it is the hardest to believe.  Why is it that I (we) believe all of the negative things that people have to say about me but when it comes to the positive it just doesn't sink in?
When a guy tells me I am beautiful I automatically think, "what does he want from me?" and when my friends and family tell me I think "well you have to say that".  I don't think there has been a time that someone has said that I was beautiful and I actually believed them full heartily.
I ask everyone to please watch what you say to or about someone else - you just never know how much it will hurt them and for how long they will suffer with those words.
I will take those harsh words that I have heard with me to my grave but I hope for the day that I no longer believe them...


I am new to blogging but not new to being a fat girl.  I am not sure if anyone will ever read this but I am going to use this as a way to share my (mis)adventures in this world as well as some randomness - I am all about the random thought.
I will be sharing some personal stories on here and maybe this isn't where it should be done but I have a voice - and a keyboard - so I am just going to go for it!